Doesnt make sense? No? A paradox perhaps?
Love and death, love and lost...they're all similar in one way or another. They could both tear and wear and rape the strongest of hearts. Cruel, cold and agonisingly long. So why cant it they be interchagable? They both make you feel crushed inside, both take a long time to get over, and they somehow make you reflect on yourself. When one falls out of love, death appears more of a reality; When one dies, love naturally fades. They seem to dominate our emotions, make you feel smaller on the inside and sadder on the outside...I must say that of all the feelings, these two have to be king, afterall they are the backbone of most of our problems.
Sure, love can be a bliss, but for how long? No one can tell. Forever? Bullshit...thats not true love, that becomes security. You wont leave because you might not find another half just as good or better, or worse, you leave becuse you did! You're afraid to confront you're friends or family. You dont want to feel the agony of a breakup/divorce. You're afaid of what people might talk of you, of what they might say, and of what they might think. You dont want to face the questions of "Why Why and Why?" Secretly, you're not confident of yourself, can you live alone without him/her? Who's gonna support me/the children? Will I lose half my property if I were to divorce? Get real...most of us are hypocrites, we're lying to ourselves. Is love really that "pure"? Think about it carefully...you know the answer. I'll tell you what love is, love is cruel...it draws you into that pool of all those "impurities", in exchange for a sense of pride, "...I have a boyfriend, I'd do anything for him; my girlfriend is the sweetest little thing I know etc..." (is that so?), in exhange for occasional butterflies in your stomach, in exhcange for being treated with a special kinda attention, in exhange of a pretty-looking face....Bah!!
Like love, life is temporary. Death comes whether you like it or not. It probably is another form of so called "love". It affects your emotions negatively, it just gets you. Death of a family member or someone dear to you is a very sad thing to happen. But of course some deaths, to a certain extent, like love, is not truly genuine. Do you honestly think the people running orphanages or old folk's homes gives a damn if one of their inputs have died? Well, maybe some..but I can gurantee that if they were within their power to do/get anything they wanted to in life, they certainly wouldnt settle for that job. We've heard of they saying, "Where there's a will, there are relatives." People moan and people cry at a funeral..if not, what would others think? You're here for the food? Or just to show your face? We're all selfish and are moved/pressured into doing things. Guys flirt because they want attention, or girls to think them funny. They play on pity for attention, which ironically, makes them pitiful.
Go ahead and feel offended, I dont really care.. death sucks, love too. If you are, it simply means that you've never really seen the full side of this world cuz you've been just too comfortable with your life. It is full of hippocracy, and predators. I do believe you're aware of everything, but ur just lying to protect yourself. Dont.
Death sucks. Love too. Obviously, I'm mildly affected by these two plastic scenarios, which is probably why I'm over reacting....Sherry died this morning. She wasnt shown as much love as I'd like to admit, none the less, she did make a difference in my life. I pray she finds her way and hope our paths will cross again. May she rest in peace and with all my love...
